I don't think i have ever blog quite as much in my life compared to when i first started out this blog. bascially i do not really fancy the idea of talking to a four sided screen, pouring out my sadness and sharing my joy when i have many friends whom i can hug and share my everything.
However, gradually i begin to understand this whole point of blogging.
Blogging is not really about sharing all your ups and downs, but also a form of reflection.
I realised when i type down the things that's in my heart, i really do feel what i've blogged. Compared to chatting with friends where most likely we would be influenced by the way others think. 
i mean you wouldn't want to get all your joy and happiness being thrown off if some of your friends just wanted to be a wet blanket and say some sarcastic remarks to you.
Penning your feelings down is very much different from expressing your feelings verbally. at times,
i feel penning my thoughts down is much more satisfying and encouraging in some sense as it is a all-by-myself-kind of view.


At certain points in my life i feel very inspired. Being inspired to do something more, to become what i am capable at. But alot of times, these inspiration moments are very quickly overturned by my contradictions and several 'Buts'.  I've always wanted to be a banker. But i am studying science now. But i don't think i can make it. But it's a very hard route. But...But..
Too much confusion and hesistation on my part. And i felt irritated and frustrated by it. Even when i am saying all these, and keep reminding and telling myself i can do it and all, it's just all somehow bring me back down to zero where i would ahve lots of Buts again.
Nevertheless i think i should take one step at a time. While being pressurized by the fact i'm in the science course, i have to enjoy my uni life because it's not all about just studying. :)